a dieu

“Trust in God but tie up your camel.”

like perennial flowers during summer dusk

Four yellowed brass chandeliers curl

Above stiff dusted pews

and the organ halts it's hollow howl



Behind the pulpit he

adjusts his scratchy wool suit lifts

his hands, the church is

so dark in the choir closet

where i'm kneeling it’s a clover green ocean



i've done this so many times,

hidden myself inside regalia



flames the color of

Revelations transform each silk robe

and warp the floorboards by my feet

it's getting so hot my

flesh bubbles, i'm

not screaming,

the congregation, with open hymns don't notice

they drone like wood bees



i'm ablaze with God's light

I tell myself

this pain is my price



buck up son



it's my fault the closet's on fire

anyways and praying only makes suffering more

real so

I do the only thing I can do



which is nothing at all

Unused album art for <n>Kanye West</n>'s God's Country by artist <n>Pierre-Louis Auvray</n>.

<n>Oma Totem</n> (2009), a sculpture by <n>Danh Vo</n>.

Custom lettering (2021) for the game <n>NewGods</n> by graphic designer <n>Antoine Pasi</n>.

A monument in the <n>Matthäus-Kirchhof Cemetery</n> in Berlin.

<n>Kreuzkirche Hirschegg</n> in Kleinwalsertal, designed by <n>Gustav Gsaenger</n>, 1952-53.

A collage featuring a vintage holy card of <n>Notre-Seigneur et Saint Jean</n> by <n>Ary Scheffer</n>.